{Weight Watchers - Weigh In 3}

Not counting my first weigh in because it was only two days on program, today was my third weigh in. I had a 4 pound loss! Which brings my total to 9.8 pounds in three weeks. I am loving this program. I feel like I can still have all the food I want for the most part, I just need to ensure that I make it more healthy or have the points to cover it.



I was able to wear this sweater this weekend. I haven't been able to wear it for about a year because I've felt like it's been too tight. Well I rocked it this weekend. Besides losing weight I'm also gaining confidence on this program. I feel awesome and I'm excited to keep going!

{weight loss progress}

After two full weeks on Weight Watchers I am down 5.8 pounds. I know when I add running back into it the pounds will drop off more quickly. I just can't seem to fit the time in right now with school, work and the kids. Oh and the weather here lately has been awful! But hopefully after this week of dreary rain I'll be able to hit the streets.



I thought I would write a bit about the stuff I've been eating on Weight Watchers. Not only cause I really need to get better about writing about anything on here but also so that when I look back, I'll have some sort of record to help me see what I've done.



I definitely eat a lot of salads. I love salad. The lettuce and all the fruits and veggies are 0 Smart Points. My favorite dressing is Newmans Parmesan & Garlic which is 4 Smart Points and the Babybel cheese are 1 Smart Point each.


I've also discovered flat outs. I use them to make pizza. The flat out is 2 Smart Points and the sauce which is Rao's homemade pizza sauce is 0 Smart Points. Then I add whatever toppings I am in the mood for. So good!


For breakfast on work days I have overnight oats. On mornings that I'm home I've been making more of a real breakfast. The bread is 1 Smart Point per slice. Eggs are 2 Smart Points each. The Butterball everyday turkey bacon is 3 Smart Points. The fruits are 0 Smart Points. I also use I can't Believe it's Not Butter Spray which is 0 Smart Points. The pancakes are Kodiak Power cakes and it's 5 Smart Points for 1/2 cup of mix. These are very tasty!


The thing I miss the most for sure on this plan is butter. Butter and I are besties and I feel bad turning my back on it. But you know what butter? You make my ass bigger and not in a good way so we're on a break!

{weight watchers}

Last week I joined Weight Watchers. I've had some success on the program in the past. Specifically right before I got pregnant with Isobel. Then they went and changed everything and it wasn't working for me so I cancelled my membership. Well last week I was reminded by a co-worker about it and I signed up. This wedding is creeping up on me and I need to get serious about losing some weight. Of course not only for the wedding, for my overall health but looking better in my gown is always a plus, right?

So far I am loving the program again! They have Smart Points now and *most fruits and vegetable are 0 points. This is helpful to not go over your daily allotment of points. I have had days where I've gone over but yesterday I was way under and completely full on vegetables. I suppose that's a good thing!

I'm excited to start this journey. I will succeed this time. Consider it done. Also, I apologize ahead of time for all of the Weight Watchers posts and foods headed this way. I'm just way too excited about it!

Starting Weight: 234
Current Weight: 230
1st Goal Weight: 200

{And yeah, I put my weight out there. I don't care one bit. It's just a number. It does not define me. I'm still totally awesomesauce!}

{back on the wagon...a link up post}

starting today i'm back on the weight loss wagon.  i went on vacation and fell off of the wagon face first into beignets, dole whips and cupcakes.  and just haven't gotten back on.  i have officially almost gained back everything it took me so long to lose.  and you know what?  it wasn't worth it.  well the beignets, dole whips and cupcakes while on vacation were but the rest of it, not so much. 

so i'm back.  hopefully i'll see results sooner this time.  it's really hard to diet and work out 4 times a week and see nothing.  i'm also gonna switch up my workout routine.  maybe my body is just getting used to it?  it's still difficult for me.  i still sweat.  a lot.  but maybe it's not having the same impact it did at first?  anyone a workout goddess?  give me some tips!  right now i'm doing about 45 minutes on the elliptical.  sometimes i do the bike.  that's about it.  help me!

i know a lot of people have successfully done this.  please help.  share your stories.  your wins.  your losses.  or if you haven't struggled but you know someone that has or follow a great blog about it, please let me know!  :)

and if anyone is also struggling or just starting out and you want to link up, please do.  we can do it together!  we might just be the inspiration we all need. 

starting my countdown over.  today i weigh 221.3  initial goal weight is 212.  9.3 pounds to go!

{saturday ramblings}

it's saturday am.  i'm at work.  {on my break :)} and i thought i should share with you some random crap.  :)

1} i had cheerios and a banana for breakfast this am.  what i really wanted was a big fresh baked cinnamon roll that they make at my local coffee shop.  i've had a couple of ehhhh days during my diet this week.  there are some days during the month where diets just don't work.  {if you know what i mean}.  every single one of those days i went to get my coffee and fingers crossed hoped/wished/prayed that they would have some.  and they didn't.  jerks. 

then today, the i'm-back-on-track-right-now-day, after i had my cheerios and banana, i walk in to get my coffee and immediately want to punch the nice owner in the face.  really?  REALLY????!  it smelled of heaven and rainbows.  i half expected a unicorn in a princess tiara to be behind the counter ready to spoon feed me the nice fresh baked cinnamon roll.  i took a deep breath and ordered my coffee.  when she asked me if i wanted anything to eat, i secretly cursed my metabolism/older age/weight watchers/children/uterus/sweet tooth/years of not eating healthy/and her and said "no thanks!"  {insert sweet-i-want-to-kill-you-smile}

so there!

will power - 1
sweet tooth - 0

{for now}

2} speaking of said diet, i was doing pretty well.  and with my diet set back, my weight is back too.  i'm still going to the gym.  i'm still losing inches.  {up to 14!}  just not pounds.  but hey, i'll take inches anyday!  i'm planning on attending my first 5k in july.  it's the color me rad 5k.  it looks like a ton of fun.  the artist in me is super excited!  and i love that it's not timed and there's no winner.  no pressure.  just fun.  plus, i'm probably gonna walk/jog it, so yeah.  i'm excited though.  i hope to have lots of pictures!  :)
3} sometimes i listen to pandora at work.  not often though.  my ipod doesn't have wifi and i hate sticking my iphone in the dock.  it's just a pain in the butt.  if i see someone i think might be stealing, i have to grab my phone out of the dock.  that extra step?  too much hassle for my lazy butt.  but today i'm listening to it.  i typed in american idol and i am listening to the "american idol finalists" station.  i know right?  total dork.  i know.  it's ok.  what's your favorite pandora station?  enlighten me!

4} i'm reading 50 shades of grey.  it's hot.  like really really hot.  you-should-read-it-and-thank-me-later-hot.  i totally expected the author to be a man.  and she's not.   but yeah.  read it.  just make sure you buy all three.  i did but my next installment isn't here from amazon yet.  how will i spend the time waiting?  i'm sure i'll just go back to the best chapters and re-read them.  for there grammar and intellectual content, of course.

5} i spell check every single post.  i hate bad spelling.  maybe more than i hate bad coffee.  yeah that bad.  and still, sometimes lisa finds things.  that erks me.  and i blame blogger.  if they'd just get that i don't use capital letters and stop telling me that i spelt things wrong because they are "supposed to be" capitalized than i wouldn't miss the things that really are spelt wrong.  thanks for making me look like a loser blogger.

6} i really just put 6 here because i hate odd numbers that much.  think about that. 

and 1} because my posts really feel naked without a photo and 2} i'm a geek....do you remember facebook flair????! of course you do. here's one of my boards. lol.

{another weight loss update}

so i have this theory. i can *either* eat healthier *or* work out. not both. doing both at the same time is hard. so i've been working out. and i've been eating better but not necessarily the best i can. i also have this theory that if i'm working out more than i used to, it shouldn't matter what i eat. i'm still moving more. i should lose weight. WRONG!

so this week, i started really doing weight watchers again. i mean counting even those two ok four hershey kisses i snuck. even if i know i'm having a bad day and i go over in points, i'm counting. and you know what? it just might be working.

i was able to enter into my little weight tracker that i've lost two pounds this week. you have no idea how HUGE that is. i've been at this steadily since february when i posted {this} number to show the world.  that was a little over two months ago. 

they say that slow and steady is best right???  i've been putting on and taking off what seems like the same two pounds forever.  this is what my scale told me this morning........{p.s. it hasn't been that low since i can remember} {p.s.s. which in turn makes me sick.  blah.}

please excuse the toes that badly need to be painted. oh and that red spot is leftover polish...not blood or dirt. i'm way more embarrassed about posting a pic in the state my feet are in then the number on the scale. that's progress, right??!

if you care to read some past posts on this journey, here is {one}, and {another} and {one more}

{weight loss...an update}

so i'm trying to lose weight.  i've told you all that.  i haven't really posted an update because there hasn't been much to update.  it's been really discouraging to not see the number move.  or rather to see it move but up and down within the same six pounds.  i haven't lost anything significant. 

i also haven't given up.  i'm still watching what i eat.  and still {kind of} doing weight watchers.  by kind of, i mean i don't enter or track every single thing but i'm aware of how many points everything is and i eat as if i were tracking it.  and i'm working out.  i try to make it to the gym at least 3 times a week.  in my last four trips, i've moved my body almost 25 miles whether on the treadmill, elliptical or bike.  i know that doesn't seem like much, but for me, it's mountains.  and i'm becoming slightly addicted to the gym.  i guess there's worse things to be addicted to.  right?

AND, guys, this is a HUGE one.  hence the caps...i've only bought and consumed ONE bag of cadbury mini eggs.  in case you don't know, they are my kryptonite.  i used to buy enough to stockpile and last me until well after easter.  this year, not so much.  how's them apples? 

the one big big big thing that's saving me here is i seem to be losing inches.  i just started measuring last week so i don't know what i've lost so far but i can tell you that when i bought my belt i had to wear it on the very first hole.  like the biggest one.  i went down to the second for a while the last time i was dieting.  then, after my surgery when i blew up it was so tight i couldn't wear it at all.  i was a belt less bra less fool who had to borrow a bra from my fiance.  and now?  now i wear it on the third hole.  :)  and on good days, i could wear it {not so comfortably} on the fourth.  so yeah.  there's that.  thank god for that because if it wasn't for that, i'd be eating butter by the stick in a fit of depression.  that bra situation?  i'm wearing my own again but they really don't fit and i've tried different sizes.  i guess i just need to go get measured.  boo.

so yeah, it's really really hard.  and i just realized going back to the post about wearing lisa's bra that i promised a list of reasons why i want to lose weight.  well surprise surprise, i never did it.  real quick off the top of my head, here's a few.

1.  to fit in my own undergarments again.

2.  so the undergarments i am wearing now will stop rolling down in the front like they're trying to escape my belly.

3.  to be able to run around with my kids.

4.  to be able to go shopping and not only in the plus or maternity section.

5.  to have my chest enter the room before my belly.  {this one i've accomplished but at one point it was a goal}

6.  to feel confident.

7.  to feel healthier.

8.  and because i hate odd numbers to fit into my cute summer clothes from last year.  ;)

and because i really feel like this post needs a pic.  here's me.  through a peephole.  polaroid style.

{weight loss...2/17}

it's been a rocky few weeks.  i've definitely been eating better than before and i have been working out sporadically.  i was a bit nervous to step on the scale this week.  last week i had lost about 2 pounds.  this week, i pretty much stayed the same.  i'll take it.

it's hard.  really hard.  i want to be skinnier.  i want to weigh less.  when i see the numbers not moving even though i've been better, i get discouraged.  but you know what, i'll get there.  i will.  :)

and because i feel i have to post this to hold myself accountable....

{struggles}

this week has been a struggle. in many ways. i took some time off of work. {just a few days} but i'm really struggling with getting fully back into work mode. kwim? then, my photoshop trial has run out. i've purchased new software but the papers i sent to them for the education discount weren't enough info, so i sent more but haven't heard back. i'm not the most patient person. i case you didn't know. also, i've taken my 366 photo everyday but i have almost two weeks worth to post and i won't post without running them through photoshop. grrrrr. also, in case you're curious, i've taken an iPhone 366 pic everyday too. :)

mostly though, i'm struggling with my diet. today especially. today was awful. i'm having one of those super bad period days. you know the ones where if your coworkers were made out of chocolate you'd probably eat them? yeah. one of those. so i've snacked all day. i bought a bag of cadburry mini eggs. aka kryptonite. although i haven't opened them yet.....yet. tonight is a movie night for lisa and i so i'm sure i'll be eating them. and, i have the hugest ice cream sundae waiting for me in the freezer. coffee ice cream with caramel and heath bar. so yeah. struggles. i've been ok. and by ok i mean i've been better than i am when i'm not on a diet but still. AND i've been working out but not like i should be. so basically i failed this week. but you know what? there's always tomorrow. tomorrow is a new day. :)

really i should say now is a new now, but that ice cream is calling my name, so yeah. tomorrow.

p.s. i got a bag of stroopwafels from a friend.  i can't not eat them.  that would be mean to her and to the stroopwafels.  right?!

{15/366}

went to the gym today. one step in the right direction. pun intended. i lasted as long as a 2 year old would last an art museum.  but at least i went.  :)

{weight loss}

is hard.  really hard.  and i'm lazy.  i know that.  i'm very self aware.  i don't want to be fat.  but i also want to eat chocolate and ice-cream and m&m's out of the pouch of my hoodie because they taste best that way. they get a little bit warm but not mushy and they...see?  fat girl at heart.


let me just say that i do have confidence.  i know that i am beautiful inside and out.  whether i'm a size 2 or a size 22.  although i wouldn't want to be a size 2.  truly.  that is not me.  but somewhere, somewhere in the middle would be nice.  but i have that ache.  that "want to be able to try on clothes and not have to worry about them not fitting but rather worry about whether or not they are the most heinous thing ever and what the hell was i thinking?  only a hanger should wear that shirt" kind of experience.


i've always wanted to be skinnier.  even when i was skinnier.  i think a lot of us struggle with that.  if only i knew at 21 that i was my "ideally perfect".  if i knew then what i know now, 50 pounds bigger and 11 years later i wouldn't have beat myself up so much.


just now, at almost 33. wait, no, almost 32 is my weight truly bothering me.  i hate myself some days.  yet, i can't stop eating the food i love.  i can't start moving more.  i sit at a computer at work and i sit at my computer or in front of the tv or wherever at home.  i'm never just moving.  i'm so incredibly happy with every other aspect of my life.  my love is great, my kids are great, work is great, etc.  i just don't know what to do.  except i do know WHAT to do, i just don't know how to do it.


the only real diet i've tried is weight watchers.  it worked for me back in the day.  i lost 20 pounds quickly.  and then i got pregnant.  really?  yup.  now, 30 pounds heavier than i was after having my last baby, i'm lost.  i'm lost in this body that doesn't feel like my own.  i feel not myself.  does that even make sense?  i'm doing weight watchers but i'm not seeing results.  now to be honest i haven't been really really doing it.  but i was and nothing.  so, i'm starting again.


it's hard work.  really hard.  i know that.  i hate that i can't just do it.  why can't i just do it?????  even as i sit here i know i should be at the gym.  i should be going for a walk.  yet, here i sit.  on my ass complaining to you.  i think i need something to hold me accountable.  but then i get pissed off at that "thing".  maybe i should just start posting on here how much i weigh.  maybe seeing that number in numbers on the HUGE internet will make me want to work better.  harder.  work to make that number smaller.  maybe.  just maybe.  


what has worked for everyone else?  and don't tell me eat better.  work out more.  that's obvious.  help me out some other way.  what is that way?  i don't know or i wouldn't be asking.

{weight loss....womp womp}

i did not do well this week.  i gained 1.7 pounds.  womp womp.  it is what it is.  i know why i gained.  i ate good food.  i ate a lot of candy.  i drank a lot of wine.  i really hope it's not the wine that did me in.  ;)

oh well.  until next week.  :)

p.s. i'm having fake thanksgiving tomorrow.  so, yummmmmmmmmm.  

{weight loss/a sloooooooow week}

i only lost .4 pounds this week.  but i'm still happy with it.  i ate like i didn't know the meaning of the word diet last weekend.  it was fabulous.  although, if i'm being honest i still made healthy {er} choices.  we went to legal seafood and instead of getting my typical fish and chips, i got chicken, steamed broccoli and mashed potatoes.  then at not your average joe's i got a cheeseburger but instead of fries i got salad.  :)  which was really only to make me not feel bad about the three pieces of bread i had.

i still am on a work out hiatus.  this cold sucks.  it's just that lingering cough but that cough sends my asthma into a tizzy.  so yeah.  i'm gonna try some light working out today.  we'll see how it goes.  :)

love this pic.  threw it in the "shake it" app on my phone.

{6.2/25...getting there}

{weight loss...1/5 down}

i am so elated this week!  i've changed my weigh in day to thursday.  i think this will work better for me than monday because i like to eat over the weekend.  especially on our sunday with the kids.  we make sunday breakfast complete with bacon, eggs and french toast and i'm going to eat it damn it!  so thursday will be my usual post day.  

today you get it on friday.  i've done really well this week weight loss wise.  i haven't however done well working out.  still fighting this cold and colds for me mean asthma attacks.  so yeah.  i did lose two pounds.  and that's two pounds since monday.  pretty good if you ask me.  :)

i set my goal at 25 pounds.  i have lost to date 5.8 pounds which means that i am 1/5 of the way!!!!  it's hard.  really hard but seeing that mean little number on the scale go down makes it all worth it.  i feel like if i wasn't a mother of four it would be so much easier.  never mind the obvious physical things i have lingering from them, i just think i'd have more TIME.  time to work out.  time to plan healthy meals.  time to get enough sleep.  time.  how do you all juggle it?  how do you fit in working out between working and family?

{notice the gray hair....i didn't color it in like i usually do {although i have dyed it since this photo} i'm trying to learn to accept myself more. i am me. i am beautiful.}

{5.8/25...yeah baby!}

{weight loss...week 3}

this week was ehhhhhhh.  i lost 1.1 pounds.  which i guess isn't awful.  i only worked out two days because we've all been sick.  so i guess any loss is a plus!  i'm finding it a bit easier.  i'm not craving the sweet stuff as much.  however, with my weight going down in numbers so do my points for the day and that freaks me out.  lol. 

skinny cow ice-cream sandwiches....my savior.  :)

3.3/26 lbs. lost. {working on it}

{weight loss}

or lack there of.  :(  i worked out every day this week but one and followed weight watchers religiously.  kind of a downer for the first week.  kind of discouraging.  but i'm gonna stick with it.  even though, technically, i gained this week.  boo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

0/26 lbs. lost.  {boo!}

{i'm a fat kid}

seriously though.  i joke about being "the quintessential fat girl".  but i am.  and lately, i REALLY am.  i'm so much over my goal weight that my goal weight keeps going up.  i'm that mom that hides things like cup cakes so i don't have to share with the kids.  and god forbid they try to eat my cheezits.  {ohhhhhhh cheezits....now i really want some}.  seriously though.  i love food.  like a lot.  a real lot. 

i sometimes blame my weight gain on being happy.  ;)  and i'd gain 1 trillion pounds to be as happy as i am today.  oh, and butter.  i don't know how i lived without butter for so long but i "discovered" or re-discovered it right along the time that lisa started to teach me how to cook.  my motto, "everything tastes better with a little {or alot} of butter".  but my family {and let's be serious, butter} make me happy. so, it's all good. 

except, it's not.  i have to lose weight.  now.  i had my tonsils out four months ago and since then, i have gained 20 pounds.  yikes.  i read a lot of information about kids gaining weight after but not so much about adults.  so maybe it has nothing to do with each other.  but maybe it does.  who knows.  i went to the doctor the other day.  i think 20 pounds in 3 months is an awful lot.  he thought it wasn't a medical reason...just me being lazy.  {he was nice about it though}.  it was humiliating.  i sat there while he told me that i wasn't active enough {no shit} and that it probably just snuck up on me.  20 pounds??!  20 pounds didn't sneak up on me.  it ran at me at approximately 6.66 pounds per month and rammed it's way into my, well, everything.  it was at least nice enough to spread out evenly.  and my boobs are bigger.  which would be nice if i needed bigger boobs or had a desire to buy bigger bras.  but alas....

he did do blood work on me.  and i hate myself for hoping that something was actually wrong medically with me so that i didn't have to face the fact that i'm just lazy and fat.  come on thyroid problems!!!!!!!  but it all came back normal.  which if i'm being honest, was a huge relief.  now i can focus on eating better and working out.  i can do this....right?!

i'm doing weight watchers.  {again}.  and trying to work out.  {again}.  i'm hoping it works.  i could really truly care less about being skinny.  this isn't what this is all about.  this is all about being healthy.  for lisa.  for the kids.  for myself.  these extra 20 pounds are uncomfortable.  my asthma is getting worse.  my muffin top is getting bigger.  {yeah.  i said it}.  and i'm not comfortable in my clothes.  i've been wearing the same size pants for five years.  in those five years i've gained 30 or so pounds.  now, those pants aren't fitting so well.  i actually went ahead and bought the next size up last night.  i think it's going to give me the extra boost of confidence i need right now.  not because they are a bigger size {thank you captain obvious} but because they fit better.  i have them on today and you know what, i feel like less of a stuffed sausage.  so yay!!!!!!!!

so yeah.  that's where i am.  sorry if i scared you with this post the other day.  and thank you for everyone's kind words and thoughts.  i'm ok!  i will be ok.  :) 

so this is where we are.  i'm embarking on a journey.  a 25 lb. journey for now.  when those 25 lbs. are gone, maybe i'll take another trip for more.  who knows.  i have a target goal in mind but it's a bit overwhelming right now.  don't get me wrong, i love myself.  i know i am beautiful despite my growing body.  you'll probably be hearing about my weight loss on here from now on.  hey, it's my blog and i'll type about it if i want to.  {get it????!}  so if you don't like it, don't read it.  it's hard for me to put myself out there like this but i think it's important to have some sort of outlet to bitch and also i think it will motivate me more.  i don't want to have to type every week that i've lost 0 pounds.  or that i've gained for that matter.  :)

oh and i use smiley faces entirely too often.  ;)

0/25 lbs. lost.  {for now}